a short one.

hi to all.

it has been a moment & for this i apologize. life on the ranch has been everything but boring. i am now on duty. in charge of the girls. one may wonder what that looks like & well it really is hard to explain. & sometimes it feels like i am still trying to figure it out. i do know this. you answer a lot of questions. "excuse me ms. tiffany, may i fill my cup? " "excuse me ms. tiffany, may i use the rest room?" "excuse me ms. tiffany, may i talk to you?" "excuse me ms.tiffany . . . . fill in the blank". & then i get to in a very split moment decide if the request is necessary or unnecessary. each chore after meals gets checked. if i am on duty that means i make sure it was done & completed to the best of their ability. example.checking the chore t&c( table & counters ) run your fingers on the counter. is it still sticky? are the crumbs all gone? if yes. they can move on. if not they can try again. sometimes the trying again takes some time. being on duty looks different each day. one afternoon horse chores can go completely smooth. the next you find yourself standing in a circle talking over feelings. one evening duty everyone is calm & relaxed. the next its absolute chaos. & so each day is an adventure. each day you pray for guidance & wisdom multiple times through the day. sometimes you just get frustrated because you just don't know how to help this girl. you don't understand why they said what they said. or why they did what they did. & there you are wanting to understand but they are just not ready to share. 

one evening i decided to do some journaling with the girls. what does having confidence look like for you? the ranchers then write me a response & i answer. this goes on for a little while. one of the ranchers & i ended up continuing our journal conversation the next day. i feel like i learned a lot more about her as she rarely says anything except when answering questions we ask. 

ms. jenna has bid farewell to the ranch. she is now in my home valley. ms. sam & i have now moved onto the ranch no longer will we sleep at rachel street every night. this was kind of bitter sweet for me. i liked our evening spent with mr. dougs talking over all the different things. ms. kaity has left for a 3 week vacation.this all combined makes the fact that we are indeed mentors a whole lot more real. 

so today i sit at a coffee shop. friday & saturday are my off duty days. these days i find myself searching for things to do. one friday i journeyed to natural falls state park. i sat there for quite some time. it feels funny finding adventures on my own. last saturday i found myself at crystal bridges museum of american art. there are nice walking trails there. phone calls are nice on these days. i tend to get kind of lonely & tired of being by myself. for those of you who are not aware i kind of like people. maybe that's why i end up in coffee shops on these days:)

continue to pray for us here. 

until next time

ms. tif.