i ask how.
how do you prepare for the end ? how do you prepare for the lasts ? for it all to just become a memory? how do you let your heart feel it all ? how do you hold the excitement of home & sadness of goodbye? & how do you begin to think about good-bye? how do you say good-bye to "excuse me ms tiffany? " being asked at least one hundred times in a day? to being the source of all the needs of 5 girls that have your heart? how do you say good-bye? to talks on the front porch swing & tears as you hold the shaking body of a girl that has held on to pain for too long. & to the smell of the tack shed & the pieces of hay stuck to your socks how do you begin to let go of this life that took your heart & changed it? how do you prepare to enter back into the world where the answer to how are you? is i am fine . where the real true emotions are often hidden & it seems like the "real" world is a whole lot less real ...
